our shadows turned into fossils

sea and i,two days ago.
lately.being with my best friends,music bleeding through everywhere that it can.hearing them,make silly rhymes in the car outside of a grocery store..writing and painting so much that my hands are sore,having my feet hurt because im so busy then getting the perfect amount of down time.taking the scenic routes exploring the deep collective of the day to come to my loves arms. rushing to work;getting off,seeing him there holding a flower and some bubbles for me before we hurry to a birthday party to paint faces.eating grapefruit with my mom.green hat,spirals,painting,dreams,a whale ring.having him pick a dress or my outfit for the day.singing for someone thats pleading me to,for his girlfriend and making them smile and see them come closer together.going to some party and meeting a girl for two seconds before shes screaming to everyone that she loves me.ever changing moons and crashing out after he and i walk through the door exhausted to wake up and see him holding me,hand in hand,eyes closed,smiling.draw a bath then share a banana split after 12 pm,and going to back to bed..tired,and happy.it wont always be this way and even though we dont have much time lately,we make time and although were in a small town,it couldnt get any better.

the earth is not a cold, dead place

 i remember going to my car exactly one year ago, today. before this concert, to put my camera away it died on me.i parked behind the theater near an alley way.walking back i saw a silhouette in the corner of my eye.. someone smoking.i stopped & looked up,i saw isaac brock standing there with a cigarette.i smirked at him...and he smiled back.then i kept walking because there were some obnoxious people not too far behind me.he looked at them too,and they realized who he was and they ran towards him..he quickly turned into the theatre door.while he sang this song he saw me standing right next to the stage.everyone was screaming and flailing their arms about but my hands were in my pockets.i was just enjoying them to my fullest extent because i love the music and they were playing it right in front of me.during this song he looked down and saw me..he waived & i just smiled back.

i grew branches

open and up

on a swing watching my feet go into blue ..into green. i'm withdrawn from the day being in one room. with one glass of honey green tea after another. my hands,my clothes,my dresser all stained from paint. sleepless nights. im making art in my apartment, with my best friends still wide awake at three am, sharing food & passing it about the living room floor. they have white wine, I have red. her boyfriend picking us up and piling into a car full of lively people, excited for night. look out of the window for the moon. as always. there it is- crescent. i'm sitting across laps and see moonlit smiles. then wandering aimlessly to end up playing music and singing perched over some strangers. standing on a rock bench to see them smile, hold each other, to hear them clap & tell us "another,another." we roamed into the darker blue of the night. we swayed to a song in different colour lights.. I lay down in the grass and close my eyes, when I opened them you were still there.

photos from trips feb & may

                           iris garden

                      green places

               in february i fell in love

APRICOT

                                           love the cinematography of this.

cutting off your eyelashes to make someone smile

when i was in kindergarten it was time for play,i noticed my friend sitting in the corner..i walked over & asked why she wasnt coming outside. she got teary eyed and explained that she was sad because her and her family had slanted eyes, she wanted long eyelashes like mine. i sat bewildered. i told her that i thought her eyes were beautiful then i took scissors and cut off all of my left eyelashes-"see?who cares" she laughed and smiled. then we played outside.my mom never lets me forget the day i came home with square eyelashes.